Best of Both Worlds

I just want the best of both worlds. That's all. Is that too much to ask? I didn't think by the end of the school year I'd truly want to stay in Logan. But now that the school year is speeding to an ending I just can't come to terms with the fact that I'm leaving this whole new life I've made for myself. Well I haven't really made it for myself at all actually it just happened. Everything has just fallen into place so perfectly. And yet everything is so perfect & totally amazing back home two. I just want it all I want my Logan life and Naperville life to just mesh into one. But sadly I have these two alternate lives across the country from each other. 

I swear (but i don't) the only time I get on this blogger journal is when I can't sleep at night but have wound down enough to think ab out everything in life. 

After friday night's True Aggie Nights Dance, Court Kiley & I all jumping into Kris's bed and waking him up to go find the best slurpees in Logan at 2 am, writing with my left hand, driving around with the windows rolled down and blasting music, 6 hour track meet, sock and jersey tan lines, flag football on the quad, bon fire in the canyon, & playing things with mix of "Fez" and my friends I just can't imagine leaving this new "world". A whole new world a dazzling place i've never known (yes Aladdin). And yet the reasons I love all of these things so much is beacuse they all remind me of home in one way or another. Everything just felt so free and easy...just. like. summer. & home. And I just love it! 

Well now that my brain is shutting down I should probably stop rambling on and on and go to bed. Alright well goodnight goodnight on this blessed day of jocelyn's birth! 

I want it all I want it all I want it alllll. Basically i just wish there were a way to "mix it all together and you know you've got the best of both worlds". Oh the wise words of HM hannah montana aduhhh!